So so so frustrated. I just want to dwell for a second because this is a reoccuring theme in my life and if not taken full-circle chances are the frustration will only continue. I feel underestimated...my whole life I have felt people do not give me the same consideration I give them or listen to me...which isn't true, but this is how I've always perceived it to be.
I have felt the people around me underestimate my potential, my effort, my intelligence, or my intentions, but when I take a step back I realize it's just ME! My subconscious mind is reflecting my personal insecurities into my reality everyday for my conscious mind to perceive and I just interpret it as "everyone underestimates me". I keep birthday cards in my planner for motivation and I have three that make me cry everytime I read them from my mom, Lolly, and Teresa....all basically state that they believe in me. Why does that make me so sad? Because I don't believe in myself. WOW. I'm glad I can now recognize that I don't have to prove anything to anyone, but myself. That feels a lot easier to accomplish!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
BIG update!
I'm a terribly inconsistent blogger!
Lots and lots of change has been occuring in my life and I have been embracing it with open arms:) I took a trip to New Mexico with Sean to meet his parents; they flew us out there and planned our whole weekend so we could get a taste of the Land of Enchantment. I was really nervous that maybe they wouldn't like me or that we'd start talking about politics and I would get on my soapbox, but thankfully that wasn't the case. I hit it off with Mike and Gloria and really bonded with them individually. The first night we stayed up and just talked til four o'clock in the morning about politics, our jobs, social issues, education, New Mexican culture, the native americans, ancient civilizations, exercise, t-tapp (I totally went on a spiel) childhood, the future - we just went on and on until we cooldn't keep our eyes open anymore! The next few days were filled with classic tourist activities like visiting old town, nob hill, hiking up the Sandia Mountains (which were glorious), and visiting the Jemez Pueblo. Sean's parents are willing to not only help us more there, but are willing to invest in a house that we could live in until we're finished with our degrees at the University of New Mexico (which has one of the best anthropology departments in the country:)) SO....we're moving there in the spring, but not before I certify as an ACE adn T-Tapp trainer! :) ow ow!
SO anyways...I've been working my butt off....literally!
05/10-Basic Workout
05/12- Total Workout + AL, DD, and OIP
05/14- Total Workout til TTN + Broom workout 1
05/14- Basic Workout + AL, DD, and OIP
05/23- PBS
05/31- Total Workout til TTN + Tempo Lower Body Floor
06/01- Tempo Lower body (all)
06/02-PBS+T-Tapp Twist+Balance+TTN+HD+DD+AL+OIP
06/03- Basic Workout + Balance+TTN+DD+AL
06/04- Basic Workout + Step Away
Lots and lots of change has been occuring in my life and I have been embracing it with open arms:) I took a trip to New Mexico with Sean to meet his parents; they flew us out there and planned our whole weekend so we could get a taste of the Land of Enchantment. I was really nervous that maybe they wouldn't like me or that we'd start talking about politics and I would get on my soapbox, but thankfully that wasn't the case. I hit it off with Mike and Gloria and really bonded with them individually. The first night we stayed up and just talked til four o'clock in the morning about politics, our jobs, social issues, education, New Mexican culture, the native americans, ancient civilizations, exercise, t-tapp (I totally went on a spiel) childhood, the future - we just went on and on until we cooldn't keep our eyes open anymore! The next few days were filled with classic tourist activities like visiting old town, nob hill, hiking up the Sandia Mountains (which were glorious), and visiting the Jemez Pueblo. Sean's parents are willing to not only help us more there, but are willing to invest in a house that we could live in until we're finished with our degrees at the University of New Mexico (which has one of the best anthropology departments in the country:)) SO....we're moving there in the spring, but not before I certify as an ACE adn T-Tapp trainer! :) ow ow!
SO anyways...I've been working my butt off....literally!
05/10-Basic Workout
05/12- Total Workout + AL, DD, and OIP
05/14- Total Workout til TTN + Broom workout 1
05/14- Basic Workout + AL, DD, and OIP
05/23- PBS
05/31- Total Workout til TTN + Tempo Lower Body Floor
06/01- Tempo Lower body (all)
06/02-PBS+T-Tapp Twist+Balance+TTN+HD+DD+AL+OIP
06/03- Basic Workout + Balance+TTN+DD+AL
06/04- Basic Workout + Step Away
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
It's my 21st birthday!
I have always hated being young... to this day people underestimate my advice and the plethora information I've absorbed throughout my life. Teresa said it best today- I'm an old soul with a young spirit. I take pride in my determination to learn, the time I've taken outside of school to explore additional subjects, and the experiences that have taught me to be who I am today. Today I am another year older and another step closer to achieving what seems like endless dreams...I'd like to thank my mother, sister, Ava, and friends for supporting and loving me, the T-Tapp Staff for showing me timeless friendships, T-Tappers for inspiring me to strive for greatness, Teresa for believing in me no matter what my age, and my Sean Sherrie for showing me what unconditional love is. I know birthdays aren't awards ceremonies, but I'm grateful for being alive and surrounded by these wonderful people!!!
Last week's workouts:
wed-Basic + broom workout
thurs-Tempo Torso
fri-Tempo lower body
today- Barb's LadyBug certification
Last week's workouts:
wed-Basic + broom workout
thurs-Tempo Torso
fri-Tempo lower body
today- Barb's LadyBug certification
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Last Friday I....
decided to practice "teaching" the workout to an imaginary class around midnight! ;) Boy, was it difficult to talk it through while I was huffing and puffing! Certified T-Tapp Trainers- I salute you!
Standing: PBS, Plies, Reach Scoops, T-Tapp Twist, Hoe Downs, Lunges (front and side), Balance, Thread the Needle, Butterflies, Airplanes, Hitchhikers
Floor: OIP, Awesome Legs, Pretty Legs, HoeDowns, Advanced Hoe Downs, Diva D, Situps(the T-Tapp way-of course!)
I only have one more paper to write (extra credit), was assigned an additional math project, and have my first exam tonight!!! Oh, only three more to go after that ..Yes I Can...
Standing: PBS, Plies, Reach Scoops, T-Tapp Twist, Hoe Downs, Lunges (front and side), Balance, Thread the Needle, Butterflies, Airplanes, Hitchhikers
Floor: OIP, Awesome Legs, Pretty Legs, HoeDowns, Advanced Hoe Downs, Diva D, Situps(the T-Tapp way-of course!)
I only have one more paper to write (extra credit), was assigned an additional math project, and have my first exam tonight!!! Oh, only three more to go after that ..Yes I Can...
Friday, April 18, 2008
It's all about motivation!
It's funny how stress can lead to procrastination;I've been feeling the weight of writing five papers, studying for four exams, completing two math projects, reading the rest of 1984 ALL by Monday, and finally finding a little time to T-Tapp. Oh, just writing that was a little exhausting.....
HOWEVER, last night I did complete an hour and fifteen minutes of the new T-Tapp Broom master instructional workout(will be released soon!)- OMG! Absolutely killer workout!! Then I also did Thread the Needle, Balance (with tweaks ;)) and Diva Derriere. I was feeling so overzealous in my endorphin high that I ate a whole medium thin crust veggie pizza afterwards mmm mmm!
I am not allowing myself to workout until I complete a few assignments and at least one study guide. I will be in this room all weekend researching, writing, studying, and T-Tapping through the stress. Ahhh, straight A's and a hot bod??? YES I CAN!!! lol
HOWEVER, last night I did complete an hour and fifteen minutes of the new T-Tapp Broom master instructional workout(will be released soon!)- OMG! Absolutely killer workout!! Then I also did Thread the Needle, Balance (with tweaks ;)) and Diva Derriere. I was feeling so overzealous in my endorphin high that I ate a whole medium thin crust veggie pizza afterwards mmm mmm!
I am not allowing myself to workout until I complete a few assignments and at least one study guide. I will be in this room all weekend researching, writing, studying, and T-Tapping through the stress. Ahhh, straight A's and a hot bod??? YES I CAN!!! lol
Thursday, April 17, 2008
One week til exams....
::whew:: I never thought five classes would be so mentally exhausting, but it is!!!! Thank the universe this will be my last full time semester until I transfer to a university and begin working on my b.s. Yipee!!!!
I have hardly been doing Hoe Downs daily and have decided to not report what I eat because it really isn't practical for me. Confession: I drink a venti latte (with soy milk) daily and Taco Bell once a week- I am not ashamed because I can T-Tapp if off!! Plus their new fresca menu has options that are all less than 8 grams of fat.
Exercise: This morning I rolled out of bed and did PBS, Butterflies, and Diva Derriere. Prior I was very congested and during PBS I could feel the mucus draining. I plan to do more after visiting the Dali Museum (cultural activity)-I'll check back in to update!
I have hardly been doing Hoe Downs daily and have decided to not report what I eat because it really isn't practical for me. Confession: I drink a venti latte (with soy milk) daily and Taco Bell once a week- I am not ashamed because I can T-Tapp if off!! Plus their new fresca menu has options that are all less than 8 grams of fat.
Exercise: This morning I rolled out of bed and did PBS, Butterflies, and Diva Derriere. Prior I was very congested and during PBS I could feel the mucus draining. I plan to do more after visiting the Dali Museum (cultural activity)-I'll check back in to update!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
T-Tapp 60 Day Challenge 2008
Today the T-Tapp office staff started our 60 Day Challenge!! We can't enter the official contest and win prizes, but we can still make a commitment to a better body along side the hundreds of T-Tappers who have entered!
Finishing my degree this semester and all the stress from my personal life I haven't been taking care of myself like I should be. I know I need to exercise to keep myself from spiraling, but I can't even bring myself to overcome the emotional frustration and it's inhibiting my desire to exercise. The stress is really destroying my health and I'm feeling worse and getting bigger everyday. I really don't know how to relax.....as soon as I stop myself from running around trying to please my teachers, my friends, and my family I just don't have any time to please myself. This challenge is MY piece of cake and not only will I exercise and just try to stay away from Taco Bell (oh how I love you Taco Bell!!!), more importantly I'm going to learn how to relax.
I promise myself this week:
I will resist Starbucks everyday (except today LOL)! I will replace my addiction with green tea.
I will exercise daily- even if it's one or a few movements.
I will take at least ten minutes a day to be still and silent.
Today I consumed:
Breakfast:
Venti Latte with Soy
Bowl of Butternut Squash Soup
Krispy Kream donut- all Teresa's fault!
(2) Green Tea
Lunch:
More Butternut Squash Soup
Yummy Salmon
My Measurements: (TOM)
Right Arm- 10.75
Left Arm- 11
Bust: 34.75
Above Bust- 34
Below Bust- 29.5
Waist- 27.5
Abs-34.5
Hips- 39
R Upper Thigh-22.25
L Upper Thigh- 22
R Lower Thigh- 16
L Lower Thigh- 15.5
R Calf- 14.25
L Calf-14.25
Finishing my degree this semester and all the stress from my personal life I haven't been taking care of myself like I should be. I know I need to exercise to keep myself from spiraling, but I can't even bring myself to overcome the emotional frustration and it's inhibiting my desire to exercise. The stress is really destroying my health and I'm feeling worse and getting bigger everyday. I really don't know how to relax.....as soon as I stop myself from running around trying to please my teachers, my friends, and my family I just don't have any time to please myself. This challenge is MY piece of cake and not only will I exercise and just try to stay away from Taco Bell (oh how I love you Taco Bell!!!), more importantly I'm going to learn how to relax.
I promise myself this week:
I will resist Starbucks everyday (except today LOL)! I will replace my addiction with green tea.
I will exercise daily- even if it's one or a few movements.
I will take at least ten minutes a day to be still and silent.
Today I consumed:
Breakfast:
Venti Latte with Soy
Bowl of Butternut Squash Soup
Krispy Kream donut- all Teresa's fault!
(2) Green Tea
Lunch:
More Butternut Squash Soup
Yummy Salmon
My Measurements: (TOM)
Right Arm- 10.75
Left Arm- 11
Bust: 34.75
Above Bust- 34
Below Bust- 29.5
Waist- 27.5
Abs-34.5
Hips- 39
R Upper Thigh-22.25
L Upper Thigh- 22
R Lower Thigh- 16
L Lower Thigh- 15.5
R Calf- 14.25
L Calf-14.25
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